When Feeling Down, Plan Another Exchange

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I've been feeling a bit down lately: I've been distancing myself from my classmates and friends, overeating, under-eating, running around participating in student politics, barely keeping up with my studies, and my room has seen better days - the chlotes are (as my dad says, just before I snap at him to give me some rest) crumpled into a big pile of pasta. And on top of all that, I have come down with a cold that has left me unable to run.

As it turned out, running was the last thing that kept me sane: after only three days of not being able to exercise, I watched a sad Polish film about the love between a woman with cancer and a guy who wants to kill himself, cried and downloaded dating apps again. Plot twist: not even that went to plan! Tinder has been shadowbanning me for a while now and I can't even delete the account, so I had to use Bumble (and found out I like it better, but let me complain). After a humiliating* ten hour rollercoaster of emotions, I deleted the app in a slightly worse mood than before I created the account.

As I got up and considered getting a dragon tattoo to make myself feel better, I ate some sweets, felt bad about it, felt bad about feeling bad about it (I'm supposed to achieve some foregin concept of "food freedom"), and realised what the real problems are: I miss my friends from the exchange and my life feels quite boring. The solution was simple (no, it wasn't): I started to plan the next exchange! How exciting is that? Hopefully, I'll move to Vilnius for the summer semeter of 2026. It's a long way off, but at least I'll have something long-term to look forward to.

When feeling down, plan another exchange.

-Dragoness

* Just note that I'm joking, no emotions are actually humiliating or at least they shouldn't be percieved as such.

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